Just a girl trying to get fit and find her confidence!
After an extremely difficult year, that included moving me from NYC to Philadelphia after an abuse relationship, I'm ready to restart my life and be the person I once was, and more!
I really want to get to a health/fitness goal of being able to run, even small distances. A race would be a amazing! Even a small one to start!
Height: 5'3"
SW: 175
LW: 108
GW: 110/115,get into old dresses!! (I miss them!)
UGW: whateves man.. as long as I get in those dresses and am healthy and can run!
CW: 157
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I used to use this tumblr a lot.
The amount of emotional stuff I spill here is crazy.
No one acknowledges any of it, I feel like a fool.
Considering getting another type of blog that encourages people to talk to each other.
We’re all in this together, but I feel so damn alone.
I guess I’m not interesting, or thin enough yet, to be spoken to.
Woah
She’s incredibly inspiring. Not just for losing the weight but for taking her health and her body into her own hands, and sticking with it.
So I went to the chiropractor, like I sometimes do, and they did a re-assessment.. which meant a weigh-in.. I came in at 166. Now, I knew a med scale would be different.. but by 9lbs!
So.. I waddle over to the scale at the gym in my building after the appointment to see the difference.. and I was 160 there. So I GAINED 3lbs, AND there’s a difference of 6lbs.
Ugh.
But.. I have been slacking in the eating. I have been eating like complete crap lol.
I need to focus or I’ll never get there. But I am so down on myself, I eat to basically punish myself.
As I’m eating, inhaling lol, I’m thinking I deserve to be fat. And I think if I don’t eat this, then I’ll be skinny like I used to be.. and people will talk to me more and are more active around me (maybe bc I am more confident fit, I don’t know)…
Then I think about how trusting and giving I tend to be and how those same people, those shallow people who didn’t see me with weight on my body, will turn on me and I will be hurt and lonely again if I do the slightest thing “wrong”. Women are especially catty, men are especially shallow.
I wish I could make a match.com for friends that were confident enough with themselves they won’t tear other girl “friends” down for ridiculous reasons, and I hope I also find a man who looked at who I really was and cared about me.
But this cupcake tastes mad good. And it can’t hurt my feelings or walk away from me or not like me.
Weird.
Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696
Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433
LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255
Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386
Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743
Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438
Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673
Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272
Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000
Reblogging because you know, someone out there could use one of these.
Don’t feel like you’re alone.
NEVER hesitate to call.
(via beingthinisnotasin)
Inspiration, :)
“Whether you think you can or think you can’t, you’re probably right.”
—Henry Ford
(via realgirl-realbody)
